I have so many books to read and I'm so excited...and I just can't hide it..
I JUST GOT A HALLOWEEN IDEA well for next year I should be a book-worm hahah.
Every Halloween I'm gonna be an animal. No none of that skanky kitty crap I mean legit animals!

Going to Flushing later on in the day hopefully if Jess doesn't flake out on me. I just want some damn bubble tea from quickly's RIGHT NOW IN MY MOUTH. So I woke up at 7 don't have school today just wanted to start the day early do some homework and clean up my closet which looks like a thrift store threw up. Ha this was a strange but laughable moment I was at the gym on sunday I was sad at the weight I gained which was around 4 pounds then I worked out and I lost it all... I guess I went "hard" but I'm going to the gym maybe with my friend Anna hopefully she doesn't flake out on me either ha. Lately I've been disappointed in plenty of people giving in and taking shit easy. While I'm over here trying my best day after day after day. On a really random note I want a pet that I'm not allergic too!

My mind on Monday mornings.

One day I'm gonna write a book. Each page will have an ugly polaroid picture of someone or something. Well I'm working on the ugly pictures right now the book can wait. My writing is okay so I wouldn't want to publish my okay writing skills and show it to the world. Maybe just maybe I'll get into writing stories but the thing is between poems and stories is that in poems I can write anything and it doesn't have to stick to an individual and have an exact point and there's stories sticking to people and then their morals and their personality and blah blah blah. Though I admire people for writing stories. I hate cleches lets get that straight now. When it comes to sappy stuff I am very very VERY obligated to ruining it. I can't take it, it urks me, I don't know how to react do I react all sappy back? or do I just nod my head.

Nude

Take a day off and take off clothes.
Casually nude.
Doing anything.
Mellow and naked.
Forgetting how to be homely
And remembering how to be wholesome again.

So my birthday passed a few days ago. I'm never excited, I'm sort of depressed. Yay! getting older! yeah it doesn't sound so appealing to me. It sounds intimidating. Another year towards my death another year with out people being around. Usually I'm optimistic but the thought of me growing up makes me frown. It just seems so scary not the whole concept of being alone just the concept of letting go and forgetting. The other day I tried to remember all these good times I had when I was younger and I seem to remember a lot but almost all the people that were in those memories aren't around for me anymore. Being young seems so simple sure there's pressure but nothing too extreme I feel. When you get older your plate is as full as a fat persons plate in an all you can eat buffet.

So today in history this lady. Talked about religion to narrow it down. Mormons I never came across such an odd religion in my whole entire life till this year. They keep marriages discreet and men have step ford wives and they don't even claim there own babies so they're under welfare. I get it practice your own religion here in America but really? The founder of this found golden plates...first question when I heard that was ..was he high? How do you pull out golden plates to step ford wives and welfare babies? I understand step ford wives to expand the religion but welfare babies? C'mon the whole world isn't stabilized enough (financially) to give a money to a welfare baby meanwhile they're mama's know there daddy's. I see the children of Mormons as a sugar babies of the government.

Underneath

I miss sitting in front of the glass windows and taking sips of the peppermint goodness here and then. 

Staring at the dirty staircase thinking about what happens at night.

Fully consumed of the caffeine with you.

Sipping on too expensive coffee and staring at the dirty staircase.

I miss our thoughtless sips of coffee and time.