Why I love my polaroid with all my heart.

One day if my writing gets anywhere I hope it's intense enough that my readers can't shake my writing off. I want my writing to be a tough stain on a white surface.

RANT RANT RANT

So many people just have no manners. I don't fucking care what people are to you treat them right. If she's your girlfriend don't let her treat you like a sugar daddy. I'm really moody at the moment. If they're your friend and they need help, help them out. If your friend will just never learn reinforce some morals into their damn heads. I wouldn't be who I am today if people never treated me right if people never helped me out. I would've been an introverted fat fuck who was naive and passive. Little things can cause big changes. Have your door open you'll never know who'll walk in one day.

Today was simply amazing. I finally hung out with my best friend Jackie. We caught up with things and now I remember where my humor started to change . My humor is crystal clear to her. Playing cards and playing board games with her and Justin and making brownies and starting up a bon fire at the back of Justin's house made me feel like I was at the right place at the right time. It probably wasn't such a big thing to them but to me it really made me happy. Sitting around talking about more spontaneous things to do. Thinking of things to drop and forget. Today really meant a lot to me. A lot of things have been going through my mind and I really don't feel like a kid anymore. But whatever great night hopefully will lead into a great morning.

Tyler, The Creator

So I'm not really into rap okay I sorta am ha but I like him a lot because he sorta intrigues me and he shows personality and he seems like he has a lot of humor....I like humor. Plus he's actually not that bad.

So I have a new habit at waking up at 6:40 don't know why but today I have school at 10:42 practically 11 and I have no school the next day woo! Anyways I was thinking about freshmen year cause I was talking to my friend Evan about it and man I grew so far from that direction I was heading. I was in the pupil of a spiral that consisted of terrible things. I was optimistic but so many things made me not even be optimistic nor pessimistic I was just taking everything in and being passive and letting people treat me like dirt. I cut class almost everyday towards the end of the year, there was absolutely not one day that I hadn't cut. I really just had no motivation towards life towards school towards anything. Honestly I was lost and miserable. The summer before I remember there was this month I didn't have an appetite for anything a bottle of water and I was done for a week I was full with such little portions. I was depressed but I kept denying it at the time. I didn't cry I didn't talk about it still haven't, and I don't know what hit me. It was a wave of depression I didn't force upon me I just rode along with the wave. No one even knew I still don't know why I was like that but I'm just a radiant light being now and pretty strong and wiser and people see me as a girl with a rainbow coming out of her ass just kidding ? But freshmen year was the year I experienced so many things the year I fell and felt the ground. Sophomore year was when I slapped myself and got it all together now I'm a junior now and college is closer and all these things that I can't just say fuck it to cause I sort of have no other choice.


I don't need to but I just really want to go shopping yeah I'm still a shopaholic after all these years. Hmm continental? flushing? soho? tangers? so many places to go and buy things from MWAHAHAHAH >=D

Ahh the thought of not having to do a bunch of homework because I don't procrastinate feels so oh I don't know grand to me haha.